Clearing up "issues"

As most people know i got banned recently :l… i basicly got banned for asking some1 not to talk behins my back (not honna say specific names for reasons)

Ehm so yeah… got banned for 3 months every1 knew it was to long and got shortened to 3 weeks. (Ty to pj for that <3)

(This is a topic i dont know much bout either) so ehh after i appealed to make the ban SHORTER i aparently got website banned… im rather confused with that 1 lel.. but i do have some thoughts why. I think it mainly was because i went into dico… der learn from that :P

Ehhh this is a rather hard topic for me to talk about… (also not ment to be an exucuse :P)

Basicly i have major issues… as some people know my dad died like fucking a decade ago (8 years) and yeah thats where it all really started… 8 years ago… fuck me.

Eh besides that i got bullied for 5 years for being a fattie and they also find it fucking hilarious to joke about things with my dad. Yeah thats my life^

Also i have adhd (explains me being like fucking hyper 24/7) ehm i drink… thats mainly to just forget things… and as only 1 person knows i smoked for like 1 month i stopped because ran outta momey and i just like didnt feel like i rly needed it amazing huh?

My life atm is just a pile of shit that goes to 1 of those cunt ppl to talk bout bullshit… i just want every1 to know that if im getting to toxic for you to handle just tell me and ill try to stop… unless u make me mad then ur fucked ;)

I want to thank people that like fucking helped me for so long;

Pyjama <3 ( first 1 i usually go with and i mean i help him sometimes i guess i just love pj as a friend :D)

Barry. Good toxic friend i can always talk with… or just swear and make puns thats also fine i guess ;)

Nemes. Nemes is different then most people if im honest… always afk… no jk he is just there for me if i have server issues and is rather helpful to me

FUCKING SMASH. First person i did facecam with and just a general fucking good ass friend that i absolutely love… aaand hes a tree. :D

Ehm cookie. Also a fucking good friend 1 of the first person o skyped with (besides sid weirdly he was the first 1 i skyped with ty for that sid ;P)

Blocky :P ehh blocky isnt rly that active anymore but if u know him u know why im adding him here

Ehh jonny. :D sometimes emotional help but for the rest just a good fucking friend :D

Futsy. U have been a massive fucking dick… no jk love u but for sure great friend

Curly… great friend ;) too young for this thread to many swearwords… ;))

Kp… c: fucking handsome welshman i can say shit to and ofc he says shit back love him c:

If i forgot ur name then sorry… <3

For all of those people i listed… fuck you all. ;) (sarcasm btw)

So yeah TL;DR: fuck me im emotional im self harming fml blabla clear now?